A To-Do List?

A quick to-do list, I suppose.

• Review the synopses of Pride&Prejudice, The Portrait of Dorian Grey, A Doll's House, The Bluest Eye, Catcher in the Rye, Macbeth, and The Tempest via Sparknotes
• Work on scholarships (cry)
• Schedule overnight orientation for honors program at the U
• Sign up for housing at Fort Douglas
• Take tour of housing at Fort Douglas
• Do chemistry research on carbon dating
• Finish posters for seniors
• Find a way to weasle my way back into the literary magazine
• Draw some sketches of newspaper website
• 6.4, 6.5 for Trigonometry
• Memorize 60 trig functions by Thursday
• Learn how to do trig (cry)
• Get on proctored test list
• Take proctored Fin. Lit test (EXTREME CRY)
• Get senior pictures
• Talk to community member (epic fail)
• Call Andrew
• Talk to Mr. McFall
• Sell Pikachu hats
• Go shopping for Prom King outfit
• Turn in make-up workouts for ILA

... I think I'm going to bed early, and waking up early.

I wish that I could write until my fingers bled, and my heart stopped beating, because it would be more like feeling,
than right now,
where I just stare blankly at myself in the mirror, waiting to be beautiful.
Waiting to matter.
And that's where it goes downhill, because what I don't realize, is that I'm just as awesome as I say, just as awesome as I say I'm pretending to be.
But I wish I could feel.